Hello 51. Are you here to stay?

Well, it's been a week already.
And I've maintained 51 kg. *sigh* Well, at least it's better than gaining, isn't it?
I was expecting 49 kg at least, but sadly, I binged two times in the past week. It wasn't out of hunger, of course, it was out of.... I don't know, need? A need to hate myself more?
But! Another thing- I've been doing insane leg excercises that hurt like a bitch once I finish them lol. I can feel my thighs bulking up a bit (gross. Not what I want really, but at least I'll burn more fat.) so my weight could be because of muscle mass.

This is me, Roxie Rice :)

Why are my thighs always so... big?
In other news, dyed my hair pink! I don't really like it because I was going for a pastel pink, and my hair turned out neon. People thought it looked nice, actually. I just cringe when I look at the mirror.
I'll post a picture here for a while.
It looks red, but I can assure you it's (or was, the color has already fallen out now, and it's mostly pink and orange) neon pink.
Remember I told you about my chubby 14 year-old cousin, Carol? Well, she stopped living at my grandma's and started living back with her mom and dad, and let me tell you! She's lost like 7kg! About 14 or 15 lbs in 3 weeks! She looks totally great now. She just needs to lose a bit more in her thigh and belly area.
Why do people fatten up when they live with my grandma? LOL She feeds you these huge breakfasts, lunches and dinners that leave your stomach super expanded. Another side effect is that you look pregnant from the first day of your visit. She means well, but it's just torture.
My cousin May and I are going to get wasted tomorrow night, since my mom is going to a wedding to sing. I hope I don't get the munchies or something and end up binging... ugh.
Damned mosquitos. They just can't get enough of me ;)
School starts on Monday and I'm already stressed. I have to study to take my college exam next month and high school finals are around the corner! It sucks so bad.
Well, I guess I'm off to read some more blogs. If anyone knows any Pro-Ana guy blogs, comment with the link, please!
Toodles!
(that was... a weird way of ending my post. Please forgive my sleepy brain.)