The tension between us was becoming more than I could bear.
His large hands gripped my waist and steadied themselves slowly lower to rest at my hips. We stood there, my thighs held closely between his open legs as he pulled me even closer to his body. I let my hands roam his sturdy back.
I breathed him in... time continued to pass unbeknownst to us, our feelings seemed to swallow us whole and fill up the entire atmosphere. My mind was completely dulled to ways of thought. I didn't care where this would lead us... all I wanted was to experience this overwhelming feeling of excitement for longer, until the morning came and my mind began to exercise thought. Perhaps those first thoughts would be guilt and self loathing, having been no trace of true feelings involved, only animalistic urges rising to the surface, but instincts overwhelmed my conscious mind at the moment.
His chin met the end of my jawbone, grazing every inch of the skin there. Then I felt his breezy exhale tickle my ear.
"I want you..."
The electric current that passed through me was something I had never felt before. I sensed his lips travel lower and felt him inhale the scent of my exposed neck. All conscious thoughts I might have still had dissipated at that moment and my senses overwhelmed me.
All I wanted... was him.
Instead, I spent it reading on my bed or watching Sabrina The Teenage Witch on repeat. I'd have 3 meals a day even if I wasn't hungry. And when I contemplated doing exercise, I preferred to lounge around because that wouldn't make me sweaty. All that time was wasted. At least I was having fun...
Anyways, I'm spending 2 weeks with my aunt on very restricted food. I don't think I'll be able to do exercise here, but I won't stop trying! I plan to weigh at least 51.5 at the end of the week. Wish me luck!
