The Pact And A New Number

Please ignore my ugly feet D:

Today I weigh 49.8 kgs! That`s a new low weight that I haven´t seen for about a year.
I´m alone in the city, since my aunt had her baby and will be back until next monday afternoon. The problem is that I don´t have enough money for food, so I just have what`s in the fridge (2 eggs, 5 sausages, 7 tortillas and a piece of cheese). Those have to last me until friday, the day I go back home. If I´m weighing at this number, who knows how much I'll weigh on Saturday.
My friend Zara (not my cousin!) whom I haven't seen in 2 and a half years was videochatting with me last week. We are so much alike! I have finally realized that she is my true best friend. I thought I would never be able to say I had a friend with whom I could talk about everything, but this is the case. She knows about this blog, and my goal, weight-wise. She decided on making a pact since she also wants to lose a few pounds. The pact is to lose as much weight as we can until October 30th. Whoever loses more weight, wins. We haven't established the prize, but that's beside the point. What we want is a beautiful body. I've been helping her when she feels like she's about to reach for the cake. She took the boiled Hibiscus yesterday with my tutorage and says she's going to take it tomorrow as well. It feels so great to be able to talk to someone about this!
Many thanks to Calla Lily for saying such sweet words on my last post! <3 Height wise, I actually have no idea how tall I am xD The last time I measured was in middle school, but guided by my friend's height, I think I'm about 162 centimeters. Yeah, I'm short xD.

I hope to reach my goal weight by friday! Wish me luck C:

*Roxie Rice*

Plateau Broken :D

I'm weighing today at 50.3 kgs! I've broken my 51kg plateau that had been bitching around for many, many months. I guess it's because I've been excercising...
That's why I'm going to start doing excercise everyday again. Well, at least when I can. My aunt had her baby and she's not coming home until Monday. The binge urge is so prominent right now, but I'll do my best to not give in.

Love & Cupcakes,
Roxie Rice

I Fainted In Front Of My Mom

Something I've been saying recently.

Well, almost. If my mom wouldn't have been there, I probably would have fainted. Then again, if she hadn't been there, I doubt I'd have been excercising that day.
I've lost 6 steady pounds in the last month, product of one meal a day (huge, mind you) but with no physical excercise. On Saturday though, I felt like excercising with my mom for the first time, just to see if she could handle one of my workouts.
She said yes, and we began to excercise. Now, because my mom was there, I guess I wanted to prove myself (?) and so I was not fucking going to stop... at all.
25 minutes into the workout, I just felt I couldn't keep going (which is totally wierd, since I'v
e been eating more than when I used to do comando-style workouts) so I stopped, and began to take a breather.
The only other time I almost fainted was when I got the tetanus shot in 6th grade, but apart from that, none. Well, maybe, if you count hyperventilating after looking at my 55kg self in the mirror a year ago.
But anywhore, this time I began getting dark visión at the edges and I knew I was going to faint if I didn't do something. I thought it would just be a grey-out, you know, so I just kept silent and waited for it to pass. In waiting, my mom glanced up at me and asked me what was wrong. I told her I was feeling bad and she just nodded off suspiciously. Then, when my visión was seconds away from becoming completely black, I told my mom I felt faint. She glanced at me again and looked really alarmed.
"You're so pale! Your lips are blue!"
I was just fucking nodding, not fucking understanding shit because of my condition, so my mom made me a remedy while I gasped for air. (Is that a common symptom of fainting? I'm not sure...) I thought I was going to die, for realz. This was the last the world would see of Roxie... And so then I  kept telling her I was feeling really bad but I couldn't hear myself! Everything I said, I couldn't hear it. That just made me even more scared.
Mom finally made me put my head below my waist and that got me alive... somewhat. Once I pulled my head back up, I began to feel faint again.
To make a long story short, I recovered and my mom told me to take a shower. Then today, in the bus to go to college, I half tripped and while I was sort of crouching (?) almost touching the bus floor, I couldn't fucking get up! It took all my energy for that short spurt to get up to standing position and stop being all awkward looking like a bird or sumthing.
Barely a few minutes ago, I felt like passing out in front of my uncle, and I was only doing my homework! WTF is wrong with me? I've eaten wayyy less and never been faint. Now my body wants to give up? Fuck no!

Today's weight: 51.3kg (Late afternoon weight, after eating a huge bowl of food)

A Secret Trip To The Scale And Bruised Ribs

Morning came, I silently tip-toed to the restroom, passing my sleeping aunt, and closed the door shut behind me. The moment had come. Clothes off, I placed my feet aboard the clear, smooth glass and saw the numbers move up. 51.1, the scale finally read.
I'm down 0.3 from the last blog post. It isn't much, I know, but considering how I've been eating these days, it's actually surprising. Any loss is welcome :D
Yesterday I had bruises on my ribs and they hurt every time I touched them. It must be how I'm sleeping these days. Note to self: sleep on my back, not on my sides. I also haven't had breakfast yet, even though I'm actually getting hungry. Maybe a banana will do.
I'm seeing my mom again today and we're going to chill out and watch romantic comedies until Tuesday, when I'll have to come back to college. Damn teachers. You just get 2 more days without school and they get crazy about homework. Good thing I've finished half of them yesterday, so I won't be wasting free time.
I don't know how other bloggers do it. They can write and write and write a post, while I instantly forget what I was going to talk about. Oh well, I hope you guys have an amazing weekend! Don't binge too much! ;D

I Looked At My Naked Back Through The Mirror, And Saw My Ribcage

Today I weigh 51.4 kg (I weighed 51 on Friday). Down 0.4 from last blog post. Hurray?

Anyways, since wearing clothes on the scale is totally unreliable, I've been weighing right before taking a shower... when I'm completely naked. This method is completely trusting and I actually feel victorious after I see the number on the scale.
I almost grabbed a cup of milk and ate some cooki
So, while I was completely naked on my bathroom floor, the mirror grabbed my attention (like every single day) and so, I turned around, inspecting my body and all it's flabbiness. Surprisingly, when I turned and stretched my arm out, plenty fierce little lines stood out from my back.
What can I say? I was ecstatic!
Of course, you shouldn't count your chickens before they hatch. It was just a pleasant experience, is all.
I'm going back home Friday afternoon and returning Tuesday, since school is out for a national holiday. Speaking about school, exams are here. I'm having my Management test tomorrow, as a matter of fact. I just can't wait for the stress to be over! Well, at least it's helping me in not wanting to eat much. I just need to breathe, and focus on my goals. It'll all be over soon.

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