Too Late To Re-do

So I guess I was right. The reason I was gaining was because I hadn't gone to the restroom, so all the food was building up. It's kind of sad to realize it now because I guess I got a bit depressed (?) and thought I was actually gaining... so I kind of binged. Well, I guess there's nothing much I can do now but prepare myself for next week. I have mentally noted that I will not be able to lose any weight this week, since my aunt is always knocking on my door to see if I'm going to have breakfast/dinner with her. See? Two meals a day. Waaay more than I was eating while in school. But there's no way to get out of this, so the only thing I can do is download a ton of thinspo and read alot of blogs for motivation next week.
My aunt CC was telling me that she had dreamt that she was eating a big bowl of beans and when she was about to have the last spoonful, my grandma had taken her plate away.
"I was so traumatized! When I woke up I was all depressed."
This is the reaction from the remark my grandma made the other day regarding her diet and weight, I guess. At least that sort of triggered her to begin eating less.
I'm leaving tomorrow (finally) back home! It's going to be so cooool to be without stress :) That reminds me, I have to feed my cat and get him fat. Being fat only looks good on animals, not people. I was seeing reverse thinspo yesterday, and wow. It was traumatizing.
Important Note:*I do not shame fat people. It's just a way I have of making myself aware that I can be like that if I keep eating like this. Awarness to prevent myself from wandering off the weight loss road.
It's almost been a year since I completed my 56 hour fast. I think I'll do another fast soon this month, and to conmemorate the beginning of my weight loss journey next week, I'll get a piercing :) It makes me focus more on my goals, and I can't just brush it away lightly, like I would a bracelet.