No Food Next Week?

It's been nearly 24 hours since I last ate (2 more hours to go), and i don't feel even a tiny bit hungry. I did have some coffee in the morning, so I guess that could be why.
I haven't written in this blog because I went up and maintained 53 kgs for 2 months or so. I didn't see a need to write since I was a fatty mcfatterson. Anywhore, I'm aproximating a loss of 3-5kgs this coming week since my food is scarce and I didn't go back home this weekend. My uncle got sick and my aunt told me that until he got better we would be staying. Well, I could go if I wanted to, but I chose not to go. The pros are that I have time to study for my upcoming exams and lose weight like a boss, plus I don't waste money on transportation fees. I want to save that money to get my roots done. I also haven't been Reading blogs because I don't want to see how good other people are doing while I just eat.
The other day, As I was heading out to the crafts store, The window reflected my image and I nearly took a few steps back. I don't know if it was the tennis shoes or the pants, but my legs looked so skinny..! It was at that moment that I realized that what I saw was never what people saw. I might be fat in my eyes, but look sickly to someone else. I spent the rest of my way to and from the crafts store hiding my legs, afraid of stares people could give me. That is how I sometimes feel I'm getting better regarding my body image. Slowly, I start to open up to the other image the world has. Maybe I'm okay like this.... but then I don't fully open up to their picture. "I could look better if I was skinnier."