I use to read books (the normal school Biology books) and they always came to that part of mental and physical health. The body dismorphia, the anorexia, the bulimia. It always starred a skeletal Young girl, in pink underwear, looking into the mirror and her exagerated fat 'fake' figure. I could never understand how she could actually be seeing that in herself.
"She's obviously way too skinny... But how is it possible she can't see it?"That special Biology chapter always made me roll my eyes, but it we were forced to read it so, every year, my friends and I would laugh at the same picture. Over and over again.
"People suffering from these diseases normally eat their feelings. They have problems and they transfer it to food. It can either be that they eat in excess, or they hardly eat at all. Bulimia sufferers later purge their food to get rid of these feelings. It makes them feel better..."
I could never understand it then.
But here I am now, with the urge to eat everything in sight and later be able to purge it all out.
And I can't.
Because I know that when that happens, I'll just hate myself a little bit more.
When did life get so complicated?
Weight Today: 51.5 kg
Up 1.7kg from last blog post.
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